Random but heartfelt stuff. Just kidding. But seriously.

Wow... It's really cool being able to see, in words, your (you guys') walks with God and your testimonies. Really really cool. But i also kinda makes me feel bad cos i couldn't even remember the URL of the blog... Anyway. Yea. I read the Bible, not daily but once every two days i think. Seeing these posts I feel that, you know, I'm not doing enough, making enough time with my walk with God. As I'm typing this it's also like a prayer to God. That was random but yea. Like how I've neglected the importance of quiet time. I'm sorry, God. Like Sam said, daily devotions are our daily bread and without it we'll starve. But what I really like about this blog thing is that I get to know your lives not only on saturdays but like the highlights of your everyday. If you catch my ball. Right. So I'm supposed to do this report by today but I'm always getting distracted. Well, I don't see how the stuff i say is related to each other but really I'm just typing out whatever comes to my mind. You prolly don't know who this is anyway. Or maybe you do. My name will be at the end of this post. So whatever. There's this word that really spoke to me yesterday when the non-newbies were praying for us, the newbies in the worship min. It came from 1 Tim 4:12. "Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity." Even though that was the word for Matthew, it really spoke to me. Then the guy who was praying, I'm not sure who cos my eyes were closed, said, "Because you are young, you will do greater things." That's a good word right there! So anyway. Me and a few other guys in school actually meet together every once in a while, like twice a week, to fellowshipanise and get together to pray for the school. It's really cool. Well, moving on. I think we can trust God on everything. There was one week where they gave an altercall on giving up everything to follow Jesus. The angmoh guy and his indomissions sermon. I went up. So there, I just said. I give up everything. Then i decided to be a bit more specific. Like a prompt telling me to name the things that mattered a lot to me. Like a lot a lot. At that point, I began to think. What really mattered to me. So I thought of a few. Yea. Number one, my pride. Not arrogant kind of pride but the kind of pride where you are always conscious of what people think about you kind of pride. More like face actually. So yep.I laid my pride down. So next, I said, "I give up my grades." And then i just broke down and cried. What I elt then was like um. You know when you give up something that matters a hell lot to you, but you're giving it up for God. Just like God gave Jesus, for us. That's how much He wants us. Honor = value. What I have, what I am good at I gave to God. Not that I don't care about my studies anymore, but there isn't that urgh to be the top in class. It's just the do your best and I'm proud of you kind of feeling. So the exams came. I just spent normal revision time. No must get top no nothing like that. Just study. I'm still typing out whatever comes to my head. Ok I lost my train of thought. Oh right. So I took my exams. Was like any other exam. Some easy some hard. Then the exam results came back one by one. Some were decent some were not that good. But whatever result I got back. I did not regret. I didn't go like shit i could have got this mark screw me screw me. no... i did not. so i just thank God for everything. So the other high achievers in the class were like taking every mark got back divide by 30 times 100 add add add find out their average and it'll come out some nice high number. then they'll come to me and ask how much i get. and usually, i would say go away. and yes as usual i said go away. but usually when they leave i will secretly calculate my average so far and see if i pwned them or not but this time i didn't(: awesome right? it didn't really matter to me anymore after i surrendered it all. So i got back my report card. or report slip whatever you call it. yea. and i found out i was first in class. haha. not boasting. just saying. blah. i don't even think anyone's reading this cos it's just random typing. did i say i'm supposed to be finishing up report? if i didn't say that earlier, well. I'm supposed to be doing some report by today cos i'll be having worship adv the next 3 days. excite man. yea. i really should stop crapping already so ok. bye(:

Bryan(: