Friends.

So sorry, but I felt that I just HAD to type this out though this is nothing related to word.
But. Hey, you guys know I do family devotions right?
Well, for today's devotions we read about one-sided friendships, & less-than-perfect friends.
And the book mentioned about someone who had a learning disability & that he couldn't really find the right friends coz everybody just teased him & called him "the stupid kid".
& they also mentioned having four kinds of friends that are bound to leave us disappointed and frustrated.

• Part-time friends. These kind of friends only stick to you when everybody else is occupied. Other than that when everyone else isn't, he treats you like you're nobody & leaves you in the cold.
• Conditional friends. Only if you can provide what he needs, then only will he be friends with you. As soon as you choke, the friendship sputters.
• Careless friends. These are common - they blab secrets, gossips & they break promises. it's tough to have much of a friendship with them coz you never know where you stand.
• Shallow friends. These kind of friends only joke around, so whatever you say don't mean a thing to them. They won't help you seriously.

So I'm here saying that I used to be with careless & part-time friends. Nothing good ever came out just by trying to act cool and trying to be popular like them (part-time friends). They only used people, they only gossiped behind your backs even if you're close to them. & I ended up feeling hurt and lonely being with them. I turned bad, spending money on fast food almost everyday even though I knew my parents wouldn't approve of me doing so & alot of other stuff I was unwilling to do. & I did all these kinds of stupid things just so I could fit in & the whole process of me trying to do so just felt wrong, it just wasn't me.

So, ever since I stopped talking to them, stopped hanging out with them, people from my cca (netball) whom has never EVER talked to me before started talking to me, encouraging me to work harder, laugh with me, & I even thought they'd hate me all my life. Other people also started talking to me more often & when I asked them why, they said I don't have an attitude problem anymore. & all THIS happened because I wasn't with them anymore! It was really encouraging & I realized how much I'd missed out when I was wasting time with friends that didn't truly care about me. I'm now very proud to say I've found my true friends who appreciate me the way I am & who constanly care about me & no matter how big the problem is, they're always there for me. They don't make use of me, & they aren't part-time friends coz they always want to be around. Now that I'm spending time with my new friends, I just watch from afar how ridiculous I used to be like one of those "popular, act cool" people & yes I can call them ah lians (?).

So my mom thanked God tonight for me, that He showed me who my true friends really are. I just feel so... MYSELF when I'm around my new friends now & I come home not feeling lonely or upset coz I'm not the dark person I used to be.

I thank God for showing me the right path once again. (:

Trudy.