praising God

I think I'm drifting further away from God. Seriously, many things are happening now, i really really can't stand it. It's like clouding my relationship with God. The feeling is really bad. I think I'm like so mean. I blame God for all the bad things that he done to me, but if I really did look then, what about all the other people in the world dying of starvation,being tortured or even worse. So yeah, when I think God is being bad to me, I'll praise him, because no matter what, I'm still at a much better state than many other people out there. I know that God would strengthen me through him and make me a much stronger person than before.
JL