praising God

I think I'm drifting further away from God. Seriously, many things are happening now, i really really can't stand it. It's like clouding my relationship with God. The feeling is really bad. I think I'm like so mean. I blame God for all the bad things that he done to me, but if I really did look then, what about all the other people in the world dying of starvation,being tortured or even worse. So yeah, when I think God is being bad to me, I'll praise him, because no matter what, I'm still at a much better state than many other people out there. I know that God would strengthen me through him and make me a much stronger person than before.
JL

Sheep(:

Have you ever wondered why we're called sheep Bible? I have and I kind of found out why.In my devotion book there are 3 reasons given(:

1. Sheep are stupid(I'll let you make any personal application of that principle to your own life) I feel that the principle of stupidity certainly does apply in my life as I make wrong choices and need a Shepherd (God)to teach me how to make the right choices in life.

2. Sheep are really dirty. They are dirty animals which need someone to keep them clean. That's why sheep need a Shepherd. That's why God calls us sheep as we need a Shepherd to keep us clean.

3. Sheep are defenseless. Most animals have some kind of defense mechanism to protect themselves but not for the sheep. Sheep have no way to defend themselves as they can't bark, spew venom, or have sharp claws. Sheep are defenseless. That's why we need a Shepherd(God) to protect us.

So that was what it said and I felt that it did make sense why we weren't represented by some other animal in the Bible. So yea hope it made sense to you too(: -Natasha.

faithfaith!

HERE I AM POSTING! YAY
Okay. I wanna post about chinese exams! YAY.
HAHA. It was really scary.
The day before, my friend said she'll lend me a dictionary,
but SHE DIDN'T BRING!!
HAHA. I didn't really blame her, cause she just got too nervous about her higher chinese paper. Very common of her.
I was like super anxious. I would fail paper 1 without a dictionary.
HAHA. cause its the only time I'll seriously write my chinese composition, cause there's two hours for letter writing and the composition.
I went around asking like most of the teachers, but they already lent or didn't have.
Another friend and I went looking, cause we both didn't have dictionaries,
but I helped her got hers but I still didnt have mine.
At that point, I was so disappointed. It felt as if, God didn't care about me.
I prayed many times to ask him to help me, but even as I walked in the examination classroom, no one saved me. I just accepted that.
I was totally racking my brains, I knew many phrases or words,
but I didn't know how to write them, which means I need substitute words, which would come out really lame and stuffs.
Like around 45 minutes before the exam ended, my best friend who's sitting behind me put her electronic dictionary at the back of my chair.
I was thinking. OMGOMG.
HAHA. Yeah, and I got to fill in the blanks in my paper.
I learnt that we must trust God to do anything for you.
He;s like testing our faith in some sense.
Like, how he tested (i forgot who) in the bible, by taking all his things away and seeing if he'll still love God.
Yeah thats all!:D